I have been reading or listening to some form of personal development every day for the last month. The mindset change is apparent after 2-3 days. Things that should make me SO angry just don't matter as much. I try to look on the bright side of everything, but I definitely won't say I'm perfect at this by any means.
Life completely changes all of the time, but I have to say postpartum is one of the worst times mentally for me. I had postpartum depression after I had Connor, and I was so ashamed of it, I just hid it from everyone and suffered alone. Luckily I found many moms who felt the same way and shared their stories, so I became more comfortable sharing my story about postpartum depression.
Just because I am losing weight faster than I did with Connor (the right way mind you), I am still not at 100% when it comes to depression. I get so upset when the crying just doesn't stop from now 2 babies instead of just one. I feel like I'm going crazy when I can't catch a break. It seems like when one stops crying, the other starts. Connor likes to throw tantrums when he's not getting attention, and the fact he is almost 2 and a half and not talking very much doesn't seem to help. Luckily Mark is good with tag teaming, so we usually can calm them both down eventually.
Twirling, believe it or not, has been a huge source of sanity for me. I LOVE teaching it. It's so great when your student comes back after a week and shows you a new trick or ability.
Bringing it all back into why personal development is so important - without it, I would undoubtedly assume the world was against me. I have completely changed my mindset. I have routines each day. I realize how lucky I am for everything I have in life. I never thought I would be anything if I didn't have my comfy little job in Corporate America, and now I cannot imagine ever going back to that life. I see a real future in the things I am doing. Until Mark and I both listened to a Periscope broadcast by Chalene Johnson, I never realized he actually supported me in what I pursue.
Tomorrow I start my first real course in personal development (meaning I am paying for it knowing I'll get a huge return for the value of the course). I can't wait to come back to these posts one day knowing that I persevered and had the mindset that I would do well. My main goal in life is to inspire people to be better than they were yesterday. Whether it's fitness, personal life, or even baton twirling. When others succeed, I am beyond thrilled and happy for them. I like being behind the scenes and just guiding people to where they need to go.
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